mood: sad music: Nightwish-Ever Dream

It's not been the best fortnight, last week we got the terrible news that a work colleague had been killed in a car crash, she was only 22, the funeral is tomorrow.  It was heartbreaking news and the entire building, all 250 of us have been walking around dumbstruck, and more recently a closer work mate had a stroke.  She kept going to her doctors complaining of a migraine that hadn't disipated they kept sending her away telling her to take some asprine and it would go.  Sunday she was admitted to hospital and they confirmed she had a stroke.  It's as if someone has cursed us, and it's heartbreaking.

In news more closer to home I am fed up of being poor, I am so envious of work colleague who can swan around and not worry about cash, i feel as if all i do each month is scrape closer and closer to the barrel.  I wish i was better with money but after working my finances out this morning i cannot work out where all my cash goes, I don't go out all the time drinking, yes i smoke but i don't blow £300 on fags, I don't have thousands of clothes or shoes so where the hell does it all go? 

mood: cranky music: Rogue Traders- Voodoo Child

It's a question i often ask myself, and i've been contemplating it after a restless nights sleep. 

I arrived home yesterday after a hard days work (ha) out the oven on and sat down in front of the tv and put neighbours on, I get taken out of the mindless televison blaring because of a little tap tap tap at the door, which then turned into a boom boom boom as i was getting to the door, the boom turned to banging, i opened the front door to find a small child in his PJ's holding a radio control and hoping on my door step  "Have you seen my helicopter?"  he asks still bouncing around like a loon.  "i fink it is your garden?" I went to close the door and the little sod put his foot in, i told him to wait and slammed the door, i bashed around for the french door keys found them went into the garden tried to avoid the frogs on the patio and looked for the helicopter, nothing.

I go back into the house and open the front door "no helicopter i said try next door"  He goes away, i sit back down to my television, 15 minutes later the frontdoor starts coming of the hinges again  i open it to find he has sent his knuckle dragger father this time "has my son dropped his helicopter in your garden!"  Again i tell him no look him up and down and decide that perhaps i should get my 6ft 4" boyfriend to hurry up home and deal with the rather large bloke.  I apologised said no it wasn't in my garden and that he should perhaps look elsewhere.  I shut/slamed the door.  I go upstairs desiding that i wasn't going to be able to watch any televison was in the middle of getting dressed looked out the window to find the entire lot of them hanging of my garden wall (my garden is about 6ft by 4ft it is tiny!  I have two apple trees, a pear tree and a damson tree)  anyway i'm fuming by this point he has been told twice i don't have the helicopter. i grab my phone and ring corin who is about two minutes away and tell him to put his foot down, he screaches into the drive, this point they have decided there is actually nothing in my garden gee wizz guys i think i told you that! , and is looking elsewhere.  Corin comes over and again goes into the garden and has a look, opens the gate sees mr nosey approaching, who then tells the whole silly sob story to him, corin again tells him there is no helicopter and that maybe he should leave us alone.  Mr nosey then says his son saw it fly into the garden, to which corin replies not likely and if it had landed in the drive the other children who live there whould have stolen it, Mr Nosey decides at this point his tiny 5ft 4" frame isn't a match for corin and goes away.  I wasn't overly annoyed at the knocking on the door but i am so cross he didn't believe me and was going to begin trespassing! 

mood: bored

Okie dokie I'm bored the boss has gone to have a root canal done and i'm stuck here all by myself, i only have several very boring people to keep me company in the office as mel is away for a few days.

Looking forward to catching up with people at the training weekend though if we do get bored at all i hear there is nice new johnny depp movie out soon so we can always go and drool over him, the kit etc then drool over him again............